Beautiful Babies

I'm pretty sure you're gone. If not totally gone, I know you're headed in that direction. I'm not sure what happened or why you turned away from me but I do know that it hurts. I had such high hopes for us. At first...at first I tried to hold back. I tried to contain myself for fear of becoming too attached. Afraid to become too involved I set up barriers. And then I decided it was ok. I decided I couldn't continue to deny the feelings that were racing through my heart. I couldn't thwart the thoughts that raged through my mind. And that's when it happened. Thats when I noticed your gradual withdrawal. The distance you were putting between us became evident. But, what could I do? If I pushed too hard, I would appear clingy and desperate. So, I acted like I didn't notice. I acted like it didn't matter. But, the truth? The truth is that I'm dying inside. I want to see you. I want to touch you. Hell, I would settle on just seeing your name in my inbox or on my phone as a text message. But its not happening. You're going away (maybe already gone). So why the fuck am I still here?